Saturday, 1 November 2014

Why is life so unpredictable ?

My partner received some very bad news about his mam yesterday, it's one of those things where it's like "what do I say to make it all okay?". How do you make it all okay for them? What do you say? How can I help? ... The fact is nothing I say can or will help or put it right for his mam, I guess all I can do is be there for him if he wants to talk which he probably won't because he is a typical man and doesn't do emotions or feelings.

I felt guilty ,guilty that I was upset for him and his family "what are they going to do?" and then there was the guilt that I started to think what if it was my mam and how I would feel and how I just couldn't deal with it.

Why does life have to be so unpredictable ? How do these things just happen? Why were they no symptoms? 

I am being positive for him telling him it's all going to be okay and how strong his mam is and that she can beat it and get over it but how would I know? Who am I ? How can I promise such things?

We don't know exactly what is going to happen until Monday now and probably even then they won't rush to give us the results I am hoping and praying that it is not as bad as it has been made out to be? Maybe they got it wrong?

I guess we will fake it until we make it?????

Until then Piggy cuddles for me , I hope you are all having a better day Love xox